Random rant :P

So uhm, -cough- how do i start this...hmm...okay.

So basically, I haven't touched this blog in what seems like eons and neither do I have the real mood to actually type some stuff, but here's the thing, it's weird or rather it's too hard to actually be a friend to a person when the person is actually so unhappy with you in the first place and thinks that you are being a hypocrite, it makes it worse that the person always cries and indirects stuff which really makes it hard, SO hard.

Friendship stuff is normal, yea, I know that but it's hard to pretend, tbh, I don't even understand the people now, it's growing even worse than ever before. Trying to persuade the person is hard too and I've actually been in the situation where I'm impossible to persuade, yea, I totally understand my mood swings are unbearable and I tend to flare up at the simplest things, and am emo and stuff, I can actually see this things on my own without anyone having to tell me and I'm sometimes sorry to the people around me, I totally understand that it is really hard and annoying to be around me, so insensitive and shit, but honestly, I don't wanna be this insensitive, at least I wasn't like that in the past. Too many things happened to change me to the person I am now, no one actually knows but I don't actually mind. I'm just trying to be this friend that I thought can cheer people up without having them to PRETEND to laugh at my stupidity and jokes that aren't even that funny.

So, let's say I'm just this tom-boyish person, well, not really but I have a lot of guy friends, and honestly, they're just my friends, but it seems like everyone thinks that nowadays when you talk to a lot of guys and hang out with them you're just this flirty little girl, in fact, that isn't it, if you could see how different sometimes being around guys would be, you would understand the way I feel. I'm a fun-seeker and I like to move, to play, to game, therefore the closeness to the guys, but does anyone actually bother to understand? well, no, not really...

It' s cute how everything just had to blamed on you when you hadn't done anything wrong but just listening to other people's problems can drown you to death. I don't mind lending a listening ear, but it's also somehow quite stupid that you decide to carry them all on your shoulders and be sad for them too and thus affect your own studies. It says a lot really, about everything. It's also quite silly and stupid to get trampled over by people who make you do their homework for them, for so many years now and I still cannot learn to say no, stupid huh? :) Well, I guess this rant might just end here before it gets emotional, thanks for reading and uh, love ya all <3

Hols

IT'S THE HOLIDAYS YAY! XD

Soooooo finally it's the June hols! Sigh, I'm jam packed with activities for almost every week in the month, but anyways, I'm gonna enjoy myself and don't give a damn about anything during this entire week ahaha. I guess I'm more of looking forward to getting my new phone I guess hehe, xP Just a little excited too for my upcoming camps and Lasertag that imma take part in with my group of friends. Although tbh I think I will suck at it, but I will still try ahah. Anyways, I'm kinda a little too addicted to the game 'League of Legends' right now and it is definitely not doing me any good..yea. But anyways, Imma go in game soon. :) Update later, byeeeee

-CP

Gave up

Gave up

Okayyy, so basically, this post is gonna be about how I don't care about him anymore ahahah xD So basically I gave up on him, cos I guess, he's impossible to get and plus he probably finds me annoying now that there's this dude who went to tell him I have a crush on him and I am pretty sure he is damn annoyed right now. Although finally I decided to muster up my courage to actually text him again after about a week plus, he didn't bother to reply or even give a shit about my message. So I guess this will be my last and final attempt, just hope that he finds someone better I guess....yea. It's probably more of me not wanting to try or even idk, say hi or even say hi to him in school. Life sucks doesn't it? :)

So there's this guy....

There's this one guy

Okay so, there's this one guy I really felt was perfect, well, everything, his personality, his looks, the way he looks at me, everything. I really like him, which might as well be close to love, but then I realised, that there isn't a single point in me liking him, I look like some dude, with short hair, and a really badass and boyish personality that will naturally make me friends with guys, I mean, who would like a girl like that huh? But tbh, this guy, he meant so much, well, until I realised that maybe I'm just annoying him and I should just stop this feeling towards him, he's perfect, really, but impossible to get. I'm just gonna keep moving forward, and, not gonna stop to look at him or even talk to him online unless needed to ever, I guess, it's hard, but I gotta try...huh? :) Well, anyways, my exams are coming, well, yea, so I'm kinda busy and this sucks cos that means I can't update the blog, but uhm, just make sure you guys out there have efficient rest and yea, will update soon! xD

-CP

Friendships

TRUE FRIENDS, FAKE FRIENDS?

Okay so let's just say that in high school, everything is full of drama and bullshit. But one of those i simply don't understand is how to identify the people who are deliberately using you if not are just simply faking that they like you. The most trustable people tell the most truth, and should i believe the truth or believe what might be a lie? Just wish'd everything could be rewind back to when it was great, true friends, i see them now, clear as anything :) Those who are there for you 24/7 might just be those true friends, they never fail to make you smile and be there for you when you got knifed in the back, i love those friends

Got over..? Nah

Over you

So the other day, I was saying i got over you, but in actual fact, it's just so hard to get over you cos you were everything I ever wanted, and well, it's still the same now. I don't know if it's the way you look at me or the way you talk, or reply, everything, it just makes it harder for me to give up on something as perfect as you. I'm not the only girl that feels this way towards you, neither am I your cup of tea, but I'm just satisfied with everything we are having now. :) So please, stay?

There's this one guy

So there's this boy...

Who’s amazing and everything i want, he makes me smile for no absolute reason, makes me happy without him knowing it.

Who drives me crazy when he ignores me, who drives me even crazier when he doesn’t reply.

Who gives false signals that he feels the same, and gives even more false signals when we have these little moments where we stand there and just stare at each other and smile. Who i spend every 11.11 and 23.11 wishes on ♥

He’s the one i think about every single fucking day and i don’t even know why :) And I’m sure i’m not the only one...

Heyy guys :)

RESTART

Okai so as you guys should have known, I've deleted my other blog due to some shit personal reasons hahha xD Well, I'm gonna restart and use this blog again for my quotes and other bullshit, so hope you enjoy them :>

ROCK N ROLL

Okay, so here's a crazy post on rock n roll!!!! 

I've just listened and got addicted to this crazy song, "Long Live Rock & Roll" by Daughtry and it couldn't get any better with the way he adds most of the rock bands names into the songs, it is freaking creative and the best song ever!!! I mean, he IS an amazing American rock band singer and thus should totally deserve more recognition and popularity for his work. You can never seem to get sick of his voice <3 OMG IM RANTING SO MUCH ON HIMMMM XD JUST GO LISTEN TO THE CRAZY SONG COS IF YOU'RE A ROCKER, YOU WOULD LISTEN TO IT OKAY